I'm there too... I think

Lauren, I think I am there too. I don't always know what I am feeling or should be feeling. I usually feel like everything is just fine, but sometimes its not and sometimes I don't know how to act. I am not a highly emotional person and have just always been really good at pushing my feelings under the rug. I desire to be open and share who I am with you all, but at times I feel like I don't even know who that is. I have never been truly vulnerable to anyone except Kyle and I don't really know what that looks like for me. But as we continue to share our stories and I know each of you a little more I feel a little safer and more like I can open up... even though I still don't really know what it is that I am opening up.

Sorry... I feel like I was just rambling.